Hello, my beautiful readers!
First off, thanks for being so patient with me. I cannot tell you how lovely it is to see that you guys are still surfing my blog despite my absence recently. There has been a lot going on recently from family health problems to assignment deadlines to friends visiting and lots of uni drama. So to say thank you for your dedication this is a special, but hard to write, blog entry.
These past couple of weeks I have been absolutely ecstatic, seriously I’ve been dancing to the radio waves of the supermarket as I’ve shopped, I’ve been beaming and confident in myself. This is all because of the amazing support of my family and friends. At over 1 year and 7 months clean of self-harming and so much to show for how far I’ve come, I have neglected my routine of building my emotional defenses. It is great to feel that happy again and enjoy my life with such clear vision.
What I forgot is that recovery is not a straight tunnel to the light on the other side and is in fact a very bumpy roller-coaster. Over the past few days, I began to feel the low again as things began to add more and more pressure to my strength. The good news is that because I have learnt how to identify my low mood, it is very easy for me to take myself away from the situation and re-evaluate things so I can progress. I have to take a break back home with my family a week or so to re-collect my thoughts and begin to return to my normal bubbly and chipper self. This is just a bump in the road and is definitely not a set back in my recovery. If anything I hope that dealing with all this and knowing that I am able to cope when problems arise will reassure me that I am stronger than I sometimes feel.
The point of me sharing this with you lovely people is not for sympathy, because I do not need it. It is to raise awareness of the rocky roller-coaster of recovery. It is perfectly okay to have bad days or bad weeks. It is okay if you have to take time out of normal routines to focus on you especially learning to love yourself again. Recovery takes time and work but it is possible. Be safe, be happy and keep loving until my next post, my lovelies.
P.S. I love you all.
(My featured image is courtesy of the sheisrecovering tumblr blog)